&& all i needed was you (:

2010-01-31T10:22:00.001-07:00

Just wanted to post something. Cause it seems really dead.
Anyways life has been pretty much different. EVERYTHING
seems new. I miss 4R'09 SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! So wanna have
outing soon. So badly. I like my ITE friends. But not all i like. Nor i prefer.
They are so IRRITATING! Okay, i don know what to typeeeeeeeee!
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Goodnight.
Time check : 0124am.

2009-12-17T09:09:00.001-07:00

It feels different in blogger now. Hahha. After so long, i'm in here.
For the people's sake who wanted me to update. Especially for dearest,
Hasina. I hope you're happy. Argh, but i'm lazy tp type. Yet forcing tooo!

Anyways gonna be 2 months since i'm working. I enjoy where i'm
working. It feels like a second home. Slack, stress, enjoy! Everything.
I don wanna stop that job, yet time comes i'm gonna stop. & throw attention
on STUDIES, just studies; How pathetic. & Lastly, Results tomorrow.

Peeps, my sister wanna use the lappy. I will blog again when i'm free. Byeeeeeeee!

& Finally, my sistere turned 19! & Next week i'm 16. Isnt the numbers cool? Haha.

Okay, goodnight (:

2009-09-27T09:22:00.002-06:00

FCUK YOU BASTARD!

You didn't realize, you actaully hurt the one i love.
So much, so deeply. & Yet, i see her with so much of
tears. Wanting to revenge. But all i could say to myself
was, i believe i can make her happy. Giving her all the happiness
she deserves. Babe, don't worry! I'll be your side now & foreverrrr!

2009-09-25T10:56:00.001-06:00

If you think i'm your right choice.
Come to me now.
` Or else its gonna be really late! (:

2009-09-24T10:14:00.002-06:00

I was in the urge of crying a river yest.

Thanks to some sweethearts for cheering me !

Nights, off to bed. Gotta wake up early for Patron's day!

` Say you love me, cause i want to belong to you!

2009-09-21T11:55:00.005-06:00

Those smiles werent for real. All the moments which

actually cramped up my happiness. It was as fast as the

wind. In just a snap, everything was over. & here i'm sitting

down with the lost of my smiles. Will you be my smile?

Some times aren't really fair. I must really say. God, you're

not being fair. You're not giving happiness to one who deserves

it. But giving everyone who doesn't deserve them. I would wanna

include myself in. I only see my smiles with certain people. But not

everyone. & I feel horrible when i do it. There's noone i can actually

talk my heart out. To the closest friend of mine too. I feel totally ashamed.

& Rarely wanna share my problems out. As they see me as the Happy Go Lucky type!

I can't face reality ! & Its so hurting sometimes. I want to cry out. All alone, just

give me a night where i can be alone. With musics on. & I would wanna lie down.

& Slowly be gone. I really wishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Honestly, i wanna study. I want good grades.

Tell me who doesnt? But i take the effort & time

to take out my Books to study. But when i do that,

Nothing goes up to my head. God, why arent you being

fair to me?? I tried and tried.

;Everytime i try, i keep failing.

Tell me when will i succeed.

Boy, i just want you for myself.

Would i?

2009-09-19T13:09:00.003-06:00

I'm very angry! My body is super HOT!
& Thanks to those Fucked Up Mother fucking
bitcheS! Argh, threw my anger all to them. I loved
the way i slammed the door at them. You deserve it
SLUTS! I curse you & i would let God give you the punishments!

& I met Cousin today. Gosh, i missed her so much.
LOL! I didnt know she was actually coming to temple.
I got a shock when i saw her. Hmph! Talked sooooooooooo
much of stories. & It made me realise, i missed her so much
& we both weren't updated much. LOL! About me being in love
with _____! I was like WTH! Nooooooo! Hahah. Updated her soo
much. Yeah, she too updated me. Had fun. & She was my best company
today. I love you Lovely cousin. Lets meet up soon! <333

2009-09-18T00:54:00.003-06:00

Aisha, i doubt if you would read this. But i was really
touched by those words you told me. I was really speechless
at that very moment. Yet, i want you to know that i've appreciated
you in all ways. & you've been more than a best FRIEND could be !!!
& I apologize for all the wrong things i've done to you. (:
And i love you Aisha Farveen ((:

Those people took you for granted. Every moment they had with you,

that's the same moment i want withyou. I feel jealous when they can have it

& i can't! Now that,i know i can have it, i smile to myself. But i realise you're

not there to spent the time with me. Baby, i miss you.

2009-09-16T09:35:00.002-06:00

Dearest is sick ): I miss her so much though.
She's so cute, though she's sick. But this seems
alittle worst. Never heard her complaining this much.
I would pray for her recovery. I miss the nosiy one!
& i hope God, she's fine soon. I love you love.
(: Missing you.
Ps: You'll read after years! Nvm.
GET WELL SOON! (:

Something about me is really different. I wanna figure

out what has happened to me. (: * Curious. Some might

know. But i don know. Anyone? Hmph!

I happily skipped schoolllllllllllllllll! (:

& Again, i'm skipping school tmr.

A H-A-P-P-Y K-I-D !

It feels like heaven, when i close my eyes;

All i could see was the smile which attracted !

2009-09-14T03:18:00.000-06:00

Much stronger, much BETTER!

` I miss the way you scold me
for my messyness.

2009-09-12T05:32:00.003-06:00

Suhee & Vicky! (:

Even the one i relied on in my worst, cheated my
feelings. She didn't understand me. She made me feel
like hating her. Yet she's someone i love so much. & can't
bear to lose. The first time ever, she gave up on me. I feel
miserable. Yet she knows what she was doing. In the end, she
bought out the best in me. & I love her ! (:
PS: I am not angry with her!
She's someone i love till death!
& Don assume ppl anyhow.

` When i close my eyes, i realise how dedicated i was to you.
But when i open my eyes, i feel like its a dream!
Baby, can i have another chance?

2009-09-10T05:42:00.000-06:00

I really got to talk to Zullaihah Haniffa,
Wondering if you would even read this.
But if you happen to do, spare me 5
mintues of your time by calling
me! Its very URGENT!

& I gotta thank a whole of people for being there for me.
I am so touched by each and every one of you'll!!

` Aisha, Tivya, Lynn, Lach, Rube, Rajes, Vicky, Vilashini, Pamela.
THANKS EVERYONE! I swear, i love you'll so muchh!
I will never forget you guys in my life.
Treasured oness!
<3

2009-09-09T09:39:00.000-06:00

Its my day today! [09/09/09]

Yet someone was supposed to take me out this day.
Hais, i am not feeling well. Down with bad flu & not
forgetting sorethroat! After so long, i am sickk! (:

Had my N's english paper, it wasn't like how i wanted.
Yet, i am aiming for a 2! * Looks at godd! ): Anyways,
i don want to talk about something which over.
All i know is i had given my best.

Though i didnt have your presence. Something which you
gave me kept me companied. Knowing that you were watching
over me! Cause i love you the way i love it! (:

Alrights world, i celebrated this day with donuts & MAC!
Goodnight !

The stroll we took made me miss the past.

& made me wanna cry. But i told myself, you're

supposed to be strong cause you're OVER itt! & i could.

2009-09-05T00:04:00.000-06:00

Advantages are taking over.

Bitch i'll stop it.

Gonna get ready to go for Gurps's sixteen B'dae partyy!

I am still screwed up about what to wear. Arghhh!

Annoying man. But might just wear the dress which

i picked earlier though its short! Hmmm!

PS: Fuck, i didnt charge my camera yet!

* Annoyingggggggggggggggggg!

Good afternoon peepss!

2009-09-04T08:18:00.000-06:00

When i close my eyes, i think about you.
& when i think about you, i realise how much
i miss you. Whereas, you DON'T deserve anything!

Baby, my life was great with you. Was just the perfect
way i expected. Why did you had to walk out?
Now, there's noone to replace you.
& i am yearning for someone as
beautiful as you. <3333

` Sometimes i TOO wish FB quizes will real in reality!

2009-09-03T11:10:00.002-06:00

I am the FOOL who loves crying over split milk.

& i seriously feel fucked up for that. I can't get over IT!
Yes, i swear i cant! But i don understand why?!
It's very difficult, yet I believe God is with me,
trying to get me over it.

` Your first kiss is always remembered no matter

how much you try. Cause that's the most memorable

moment in your life. <3

2009-09-02T01:16:00.003-06:00

Finally i am blogging after so long. & I got loads of updates!

Shall see if i can write all of them!! ((:

Saturday, 29 August 2009.
Oh at last Grad Photo taking is over! Everyone looked great!
I've got the photos with me but can't upload. FB seems to have
some problems. Argh, annoying man! Anyways my classmates came
over to my place to do their make up and stuffs! & Our photo taking was
at 12 noon. But we all reached at home 12.30pm. LOL! Took our pictures &
we decided to head to Pizza Hut at Habourfront. Mean while LOADS of things
happened. Skip that part! We went to eat. Than went off to the top part of Vivo
to CAM-WHORE! It was quite boring though. We tried entertaining ourselves!
WE ALL SAW GAYSSSSSSSS! Gross man!!
PS: We also tried waking up everyone who was sleeping. LOL!

Monday, 31 August 2009.
It was Teacher's day celebration. The FIRST time we organized something
& it worked out man. The foods was delicious. Especially the Muffins made by
Jasmine. Yum! I ate SOOOOOO many muffins. Not forgetting Rajes's Seafood fried
rice, Lynn & Lach's sandwiches! It was overall FUN! We blast music. LOL! We also had
Dancefloor. Sad part, Zullaihah didnt dance cause she was SICK! )): Than about 11 plusss
school dismissed. Headed back homeee!! Came home, did some cleaning & SLEPT!

Tuesday, 1 September 2009.
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY = HOLS! ((:
Had tuition!! Studied alot. Came to know thats alot i need to catch up
with! Gosh, so scary! N's are starting Next week! I wanna do my best!
& I gotta out EVERYTHING away. For my mum, i will put it away!! Gotta
MUG really hardd!! ((: Than came home, played Crazy taxi! & slept late.

Wednesday, 2 September 2009.
Skipped school cause there wasn't any lessons! (: Stay home & slept ALOT!
& Here i am, blogging now. Oh, CRAZY TAXI IS SUCHA addict to me!
& Not forgetting my Oreo. Yumm! I ate so much of Oreo biscuits!

2009-08-28T00:31:00.000-06:00

I completely hate it when i have silence ! Just like today,
During DNT! I had silence almost an hour. So many things ran thru
my mind. & it made me lose my mood. Which didnt let me to do anything.
I needed to rush back home to cry! THROW MY EMOTIONS OUT!

` Will i cry when i see you? WHY ARE THERE MEMORIES? * Fuck shittt!
I just need a hug from you. But deeply, i miss you like
no other. & This is really STUPID!

Jivinia, i didnt forget you. & i can hardly do that. I might not contact
you everyday but inside i'm always wishing for the best for you. & i do still
care for you. & Will always love you dear. See you on monday with chocolates.
Girl, i miss you so much that i got no words! & Yeah, everything is just beyond
words! I brush thru my older posts. & I realise i have been very mean to you!
I am here to apologize to you too! Thanks for tolerating me for 2 years ! I guess
you're the best partner, i have gotten so far. & i promise NEVER to forget you no
matter what happens! I just want you to take good care of yourself darling.
Once again, i'm sorry & i love you babeee!

` I am doneee with what i wanted to do! I gotta go now! BYEEEE! ((:

2009-08-27T10:05:00.001-06:00

` I built a wall around me not to be alone but to see who climbs over it for me;

2009-08-23T07:17:00.000-06:00

I feel so tired right now, i did so much of work today.
& My house looks shinny now. LOL! But not for long.
Thats for sure.

` Anyways, i don understand why people tend to take
my life over. & They control me so much, in the end i
don gain anything but just ANGER! I feel really irritated.
Why do they wanna know every step of me? Like they care for
long, i know. All this care and concern doesnt stay for long.
& Finally, i have given up on you. I aint a TOY for you to throw
your feelings at. If you're angry, PLEASE FUCK OFF! I am no longer
gonna be there for you like how i used to be. I am gonna lead my life
MYSELF for its my LIFE! I want you to get it right, slut!

& Lastly, i am gonna head to bed early today. i am feeling so tired & dead.

Vicky, i waited for your call long. But you didnt call. I didnt wanna miss
it like how i did. But hopefully, you call me soon. Haha, i accept.
I kinda miss talking to you like how i used to.
& the songs you sang for me.
I don wanna miss a friend like you in my life.

Goodnight worlddd! ((:

2009-08-22T09:57:00.002-06:00

The heels looks nice to me. I was planning to get it tho. Hmph!
But i didnt see any nice dress instead. I was searching like an fool.
& i seriously give up! I was texting so many people, complaining man.
Gosh, i really can't take it anymore. But i got three other dresses for other
purpose ! LOL! That cooled me down actually!

2009-08-21T02:33:00.001-06:00

I feel so annoyed now. I wanna scream at someone badlyy!
I feel like im going mad. i wanna throw everything i could see.
I WANNA SLASHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I want to bleed!
I feel so miserableeeeee!

Why isnt anyone understanding the way i feel?
From Parents - Siblingss!
I HATE IT FUCKING MUCH!

Why is all the job pushed to me? Dont i have dreams?
Don i wanna study? Don i wanna go into a good course?
Don i wanna have the way i want? Why cant people understand?
EVERYTHING FCUKING JOB I DO!
Than why is my sister for?
Even my brother.
WTF are they existing?

My sister, has the time to meet her boyfriend.
Wouldnt i want some moments to study? Cant she cooperate
with me too? When i ask her to come home to complete her job,
she says she will be coming home late & stuff? But when she looks back,
she went to meet her boyfriend. Does he seem MORE important than my studies?
Why cant she just cooperate with me for just another two months? WHY THE FUCK!
When i do my housework, i just feel so tireddd! I SWEARRRR! Really tired.
& Cause of that, i cant study! I WANT TO SLEEP! & I don blame anyone.
I JUST WANT HER TO COOPERATE WITH ME, JUST LIKE HOW I WAS
WHEN SHE TOOK HER O'S! I too want a fair life. Only she wants to study??
Please, if you read this COOPERATE WITH MEEE!

Mummy seems angry with meee! Why is it only to me? Just cause i didnt do
the work she asked me to do. Why didnt she ask my sister to do the same job?
Cause she was studying! WTFFF! Is this all fair? I REALLY FIND IT UNFAIR!
& i hate it.

Now i have decided what i want. Next week monday onwards, i am gonna work
very hard for my N's! I want a GOOD life tooooooooo! My Prelims results werent
pleasing! Now that i am sitting down crying, i am gonna get over my tears
& start working hardddddddddddddddd! Anyone willing to motivate me?
If you will, then drop me a text often. Remind me to studyy!

Vicky, i miss talking to you over the phone. (:
Hahas, call me or text me okay!
Hope you're fineee!
Take care.

2009-08-19T00:28:00.003-06:00

It's just a waste to go to school man, like seriously.

Will blog again soon. Got things to do.

Take care!

[ Edited ]

` Today school was so slack. Hate it so much. Super
boring man. But it was fun. Very slacky! After school,
came straight back home. Was chatting with Lynn and Vicky.
Was webcamming both the Kundis. HAHA. Funny people. [<3]
Bastard-ed Vicky! Damn sorry about it. Was talking on
the phone for sooooo long! Hmph! Than Mummy called.
I begged her to follow me to NTUC to get some things.
& YES, SHE AGREED. I was soo happy. I quickly rushed to get
ready. & I went to BM. Met mummy. Did sme shoppings.
& than headed back home.

Wow, my aunty gave me a good massgae in my hair.
I feel so fresh. Gotta shower soon. & Than i wanna
head to bed already! ((: LOL!

Anyways Vicky, i am still in shock for your tag.
I don't know what to reply for you. But really, you made
me smile. THANKSSS! (: See ya soon.

My friends have been spending so much for me.
I told her not to, yet they refuse. Gosh.
Thanks people. Love you'll much!

` Goodnight peopleeeee!

2009-08-18T09:58:00.000-06:00

I really got to say this, i had loads of fun
Despite the part where i have to wait. Argh.
Yeah, finally met up with Vicky. Nothing
new but he was LATE, forever la you.
Thanks for making it up anyways.
Was fun having you around.
LOL! & The song you sang.
Thanks eyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
Idiot, LOL! (:

Okay peeps, its damn late.
& I am starting to yawn.
Goodnight.
& Love you'll!

PS: Vicky, i think i really gotta apologize.
I'm sorry! )):

2009-08-16T10:54:00.003-06:00

Kinda relieved now! Haiss! LOL! (:

Okay, i am talking to Vicky & Vilashini now.

So goodnight & byeee!!

2009-08-16T10:54:00.002-06:00

Yes, like Vicky said. I am confused over so many things.

I don wanna state them here. Hmph! But without others knowing

There is really loads of Burden i am carrying along! & day passes i start

Giving up!

Today was great. Didnt have enough sleep. Gotta catch up soon.
But seriously Vicky is really a Kuku head! He has cheated me for the
second time. ): Damn mean sial heee! Arghhh! Anyways i went over to Aisha's
place. Gotta know this man, her house is WOW ! I love it so damn muchh!
Its so windy & cosy! I want my house just like herss. Arghh!

& I came back and slept. Talked to Vicky & Vilashini. The both V's!
Yeah, they both are great. We were on conference. I was laughing so hard!
Thanks to both of them. Gotta agree man, Vilashini's voice is so ADORABLEE!
So baby-ish. I love ittttttttttttt!

Goodnight people. I got exam tmr.

): Wish myself Luckk!

2009-08-15T00:15:00.002-06:00

Vicky, i never expect myself to bump into a guy like you.
You were one of the guy whom is really close with me. & Yes,
talked to me when i was down. Sang for me MANY MANY songsss! (:
Called me in the middle of the night when i couldnt sleep. Entertained
me when i was bored. & The thing i appreciate from you is, you inspired me
in SOOOOOOOO many ways. You made me realise the wrong things i've done. & you
told me not to give up so easily. After you've been someone GREAT to me. I might
know you for a short period only. But in that short period, i learnt SOOO many things.
& I promise to treasure you (: & Yeah, i trust you the way you trust me. & Thats why i told you
things i shouldnt be telling. Obviously, i TRUST you!

Haha, Now that i have you to talk too, i wont write that i need someone to talk to.
(: Its a dealll! LOL! Idiot sial you. But yet, the one who can be entertaining. Especially
with your inventions of words. Idiot, crazy kundibaba! Aiyooooooo! & Like i said, you're seriously
someone PRECIOUS! Fitssssssssssssss! & I would treasure you all the way! & Yes, after your work start,
don go missing okay. i am sure i will miss you. Hehe! (: And yeah! You've been a great Friend to me.

Take care & i hope you like whatever i wrote above. (:

` Zullaihah Haniffa, i love you TONS! (:
& thanks for changing my FB password. I am so tempted.
Yet gonna control. Love you. & I seriously miss you darling.

2009-08-13T23:17:00.001-06:00

I've deleted my Facebook. But i can't delete my Friendster.
Its pissing me off man. Arghh. Deleting away my Friendster,
makes me wanna tear. I've got SOOO much of memories. Hais.
In life, i guess i should overcome all this stuffs.
((:

I really can't wait to finish my N's.
I regret SOOO many things i've done recently.
I swear, not alil but MANYYYYYYYYY!
I Hate it so much. So much of regrets.

No offence but, Jivinia i hope i had you in my life
still. I was better off with you. After you left me,
My life was in darkness, i thought i found the way out,
but i was wrong. I didnt find the right way out.
& Now i am back to where you left me. ):
Could you guide me again?

God, i don wanna fall into the track of love.
I controlled all this months. But do i keep falling back?
& NOt front? I am damn confused. Can i have someone to talk to?
I am LOSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! :'(

2009-08-11T06:38:00.000-06:00

I've realized that i am affected by my past ALOT!
I cant do things properly. I feel shitty!
I wish i could have someone i call my own!
I wanna share my pain with that someone.
I wanna CRYYYYYYYY! ))):

(:

2009-08-06T05:48:00.001-06:00

Happy Sweet Sixteen Tiniest Idiot, Irfanah! <3
I wish you all the best in life !
May god bless & guide you this day !
& I want you to know, i am there
for you always. & i love you.

` I’m wishing you another year Of laughter, joy and fun,
Surprises, love and happiness, And when your birthday’s done,
I hope you feel deep in your heart,As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me, More than you can know.

Someone to lean on when problems appear, Someone on whom you’d depend,
Someone who’ll lift you when you’re down in the dumps, That someone is truly a friend.
That’s how I feel about you my Tiniest babe; You’re so special just as you are.
Just to know that you’re there provides comfort to spare;
A friendship like yours sets the bar.

I SWEAR, I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
<333333333333333333333333333

Once again, happy birthday to you lovely.

2009-08-01T09:23:00.001-06:00

Irf this update is bacause you asked me to do so.
Another 5 more days for your birthday. & i'm still broke.
Fits! ((:

Anyways my mummy is the best man. Mum fetched me from tuition today.
& This was the convo between us.

Me: Mum, whats the present inside the bag?
Mummy: Its something for you and your sister.
Me: * Shocked! & I was like, can i open it?
Mummy: No, you cant open it till your sister comes back home.
Me: Huh? * So damn curious! Was wondering what could it be!
Finally my sister came back home. LOL! We opened the present !

It was an candle holder & with wordings like,

My daughter
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
Always know,
I am so very
Proud of you
My child,
My daughter.

IT REALLY SHOCKED ME! I swear it was really so pleasant to read.
& i felt so loved for that moment. & i know i would always be loved by her!
(: I love her soooooo much! Those words could actually make me tear.
It was really beautiful. Oh my, MUMMY! I love you so damn much!

I promise to be a good daughter yet with bad habits at times.
& I would study really hard for you. & make you feel proud of me.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! I cant explain anything mum. I am still speechless!
Thanks mum for everything you've done. You've been the BEST! (:
<333333333333333333333333333

2009-07-05T10:45:00.002-06:00

I hate it when people use me ! Fcuk them man!

They think i don know. But i know & i'm just keeping

my mouth SHUT! Fcuking hell, please! I wanna move out

of your life. I don think you mean anything to me. I swear. Pleas!

Let me FO your life! & i promise never to look back at you man. I swear!

Will i ever have that chance? )):

2009-06-28T06:24:00.001-06:00

I felt very different yesterday. I don know who do i need to talk to now.
But now the feeling is already gone. Gosh, those heavenly feeling was
seriously great! I SWEAR! I felt loved! Yes, like before! :)

Baby you tell me, should i reconsider? I will follow you nomatter what!
<333333333333333333333333

Tomorrow's there is school! (:

& the reason for my bloody post was ----------!
Okay i will shut! (: Okay goodevening.

2009-06-22T13:06:00.004-06:00

Whatever it is, noone can stop me from loving you.

` I'm enjoying my hols so much. & didn't realize i'm missing so much things in my life. Noone could understand the happiness i'm having. & they would spoil it pretty much. Its 3.10am right now. & i don know what to do right now. Oh Lach isn't online. So i can't webcam her. LOL! But i was webcamming her just now. ((: But i'm being out with, Sham, Vicky, Lach, Lynn & Jagades very often. & yet to have time for my dearest Zullaihah. ): But things are fine right now i suppose. Though i don feel good with that! ); I wanna cry on the shoulders i could live! (:

But i made up for Zullaihah the time. Thanks babe, i should really say sorry & thanks. Cause you were there for me despite me.): I had the feeling of this. Its seriously very miserable. & you're my favourite girl TOOOOOOOOOO! Doesn't mean i've forgotten you or what kay? I will always remember you no matter what. Love you girl. <3

& Right now for someone who has me torturing me without fail. I don know how to tell you off your bloody face. Seriously, but its fate. Shout for how much you want, its not gonna help cause i'm ALREADY OVER IT! Maybe i should let everything go. So i wouldn't need to suffer right now? But i aint sure if the feeling is still there. But strictly NO ADVANTAGES COULD/SHOULD be taken. (: Loveyou?

` I swear, i'm falling asleep. Will be knocking off already. Got plans for tmr planned alr. Stress man. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

PS: My brother bought a Lappy! Collection is on Friday. Wheee! I'm excited. LOL! I can webcam people as often as i could. I hope Jivinia wouldn't want the laptop. LOL! I want the laptop also. Hehes. Soon okay? Okay! I've been doing everything i should but not studying! I wonder why! I shall stress myself up the next few days! (; Might not be online. Maybe i would appear off. LOL!

` Okay goodnight world ((((((:

Current addiction: Mr.Lonely- Akon & Love lockdown- Kanye West.

2009-06-12T05:36:00.005-06:00

Back to blog properly i guess. (: I don seem to have interest in
blogging. I've got people who i can talk about how i feel. Someone
who understands me well. Though, they didn't show it to me.
I just felt afraid when i drifted away from you. Tho, you holded me
strong. I LOVE YOU DEAREST FRIEND! <3

Anyways my HOLS ARE SO FINE! & ITS GREAT!
I love every second of my hols. & its already the second
week of my hols alr. & I miss zull,irf,lynn & aisha ALOT! (:
Tho, i have met them number of times during the hols.
& I'VE BEEN OUT WITH MY SISTER'S FRIENDS TOO!
They are another bunch of us! (: Yeah, i made new friends.
& I'm gonna tag along for the next outing. So much of fun,
enjoyment & love we shared together. ITS JUST AWESOME'NESS!
<3333333333333>
* Oh i'm spending plenty of time with my FAMILY ALSO! (:
Mostly going shopping together. I LOVE MY FAMILY!
<333333333333333

I'm just enjoying my life like there's nothing i should worry about.
Good or bad? I just do it for my enjoyment. BUT i know what i'mm
doing. I have my limits. Anyone thinking i'm mixing with the wrong
company or i'm doing the bad things, PLEASE DON JUDGE ME AS BAD!
Cause youll regret losing someone good (: Thats all i can say for people
who judge this way! AHAHAH! Lifeless people i guess. & That doesn't mean i
mix with people who drink or smoke, I'M BAD! Come'on. I hope everyone
understands. (:

Let me share with you what happened yesterday?

I woke up about 10 plus. I went to shower. Than the door bell rang few times.
After i shower finish, i went to take a look outside. I couldn't see anyone actually.
So i didn't bother, i went to get ready, changed. Than my dad came in the room,
told me my friend is waiting for me outside. THAT FREAKED ME OUT! Noone
told me that they were waiting for me or what. LOL! When i went out, it seems like
Aisha got chased away by Mr Chua for going school late. LOL! Cute man she.
Than i told her wait & i got changed. Than I went to meet the rest at Vivo.
Waited for Irf to arrive. Than we realize that things were very SCREWED up!
We rushed into Vivo & find a spot to sit and started discussing. Thank god,
everyone sticked to my plan. Thanks darlings for being cooperative. (:
Than we all went to Giant for Grocery shopping. After that we split into
two & we went diff directions to get things (: Once done we met everyone
at Daiso. Than i and irf rushed to meet Zull. LOL! We were late tho.
Than we went towards her & told her we were gonna blindfold her actually.
& Made her walk ALOT! (: We walked three stops further down & then took
the bus to Labador [sp?] park. My other friends were alr there. They arranged
everything & was wating for the Birthday girl's arrival. (: Than we unfold her eye
& she screamed! LOL! We started singing for her. & Than we were enjoying.
After everything, we left to Vivo. Had our late- lunch. & i left to meet my sister
for SHEESAH with her friends. <33>
- I know its not in detail. I'm quite lazy. If youll see the video, than youll will
know why she screamed. So stay tune darlings (:

` Pictures will be uploaded soon.

* I just fought with ---------! FCUK! *

I'm meeting Lynn & Lach tmr. Oh, i miss her alot too! (:
They are coming down to my area. Sweets. (L)
(:

2009-06-07T13:37:00.000-06:00

We will shine together no matter what...

Masteru, i lav you.

The song which is playing makes me wanna tear & scream.

I just feel as though i'm enjoying my life is both the wrong & right

ways. But memories hold me, never let me move forward.

I'm so disturbed in the inside. I cant talk to anyone.

): I can't stand it. I will DO ANYTHING TO get rid of memories.

` Goodnight baby! (:

- I miss the boy i call my own. Meeting him soon!

Love you. <3

2009-06-06T11:52:00.001-06:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY GirlF. (:

2009-06-05T08:57:00.002-06:00

I regret for doing it. I wish i didnt. But..............

I enjoyed myself to the fullest.

(: Pictures will be private.

Sorry!

Ps: I miss someone i shouldnt miss so BADLY! )):
I hope to see them soon.

I MISS MY INDIANS GIRLS!
) Outings soon?/

2009-06-05T08:57:00.001-06:00

Upset

2009-06-04T05:38:00.003-06:00

I'm so disappointed & upset about myself.

(: Hello Monkey;

2009-06-03T10:50:00.001-06:00

I'm talking to my dearest Lynnethu Akkah.

& i love you.

(:

fer

2009-06-02T05:55:00.001-06:00

Happy 1 month My Dearest Baby.

I love you & i wont let you go.

I feel the love suddenly. Can i love you from the start again?

hcs

2009-06-01T12:01:00.002-06:00

Now, at this moment. I will tell you this, the love is not dead yet.

I still keep this alive deep down my heart.

Knowing you will look back someday.

I hate to talk about how my days goes by. I don like my life yet.

I commit down to so many friends. & i cant make it up to all.

): I just don feel so good. A miserable feeling.

` I don have the right one when i need.

Hun, i hope you know who are you. I'm seriously very sorry.

It just happened without me knowing. I've asked you so many

times, why didnt you tell me than. I would reacted eariler on.

I'm seriously very disappointed with myself. I'm sorry.

& i promise never to repeat it again. ): I love you.

Do you?

Are you planning to look back? What am i suppose to do?

I think i'm gonna RUN forward. I don have the strength for

anything anymore. I keep it as ITS OVER but not fully.

They say its love & i say its Lust;

Boy, i swear i miss you.

(: lIFE IS GREAT!

2009-05-29T23:42:00.005-06:00

Wish i could keep you much longer.
♥

I've decided what i want in my life. I'm drifting away from many
people. Too much of commitment in my life. Am gonna start praying.
Gotta be close to my closed ones always. Hais. I wish my happiness
just remain like this.

` Baby, i know you will wait for me. Thats why i chose you.
I never wanna lose you. (: Loveyou baby! ♥

2009-05-18T13:51:00.002-06:00

Lost my soul to a women whose so heartless.

` Tomorrow lynn is leaving. She stayed over for 5 days, 4 nights. Those

perfect days. Am gonna miss her so much. I swear. Argh. So much of memories

left behind. Noone would be using this house anymore. & i will become a loner in

the day. Nevermind its life. I mean this house is always open for my CLOSE ones.

Anyways its 4.47am. Heading to bed soon. Love youll. No webcam today ):

Pictures will be uploaded in my friendster most probably. ((:

Goodnight lovely readers <3

I got A for my english for the first time. & Congrats Zoo for your wonderful

grade. Yes buzz you too. Well done everybody! K, nights.

Lynn overnight.

2009-05-16T13:17:00.011-06:00

Webcam pictures (:

Its the second day since Lynn is over at my place. Oh i'm gonna miss her.

(: Yeah it was fun with my brother & Vicky. HAHAH! The lame counter strike

game. But its cute of them. Hais. Gonna miss everything & back to studies.

ARGH! ): I love this two days. I want things to come back.

9 cans of redbull/Music/Webcam/Countless of Chips/Laptop/Dance/Comedys/Sex! O.O

The silly noises we did/ Prank calls/ Late nights/ Midnight masala/ Videos/ Supper. HAHA!

Not forgetting, Pizzas & KFC! (:

Everything is just SOO perfect when it comes to fun. God give this day back to me. (:

My brother's conversation with Lynn.

Brother: Master master, enaku oru tea vanum. Kasai accountlae podugai.

Lynn: HAHAHAHHAHAHHA! Stupid respond.

Everyone: LOL! AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!

The conversation is FCUKING funny! Btw Lynn's new name is Tea master.

Cause she's a specialist in Tea making. LOL! & She kept asking everyone.

So Vicky & Brother came out with a Suitable name for her.

They had Wushu master also. HAHA!

Its just so fun to have everyone here.

Not forgetting Vicky's childhood story! LOL!

Okay anyways its 4.10am. Gonna head to bed soon.

Will come back soon babies! Bye!

& I LOVE ...................................!

Its over!

I love mysekf!

2009-05-15T11:03:00.002-06:00

Lynneth & Suhee (:

Oh my! Friday arrived finally. Lynn is over at my place now.

Its 1.21am. We just webcammed finish. (:

We had 9 cans of Redbull. Fully drunk!

& Shamini, Nando & Ace.

Our webcammers.

Its just perfect!

K goodnight. Gonna enjoy right now.

I found my !

2009-05-13T00:55:00.003-06:00

I just want it to be you & me.
♥

Exams are around the corner. LOL! Infact, started alr.
Not having any papers tom expect for ART students.
Not going school. Will be studying tonight. So that Lynn
can come over friday. YAY! (:

` I hate being online.

STC a place where i found myself. Memories filled
everywhere. Not a place where i have no memories.
Anyways was walking around the benches with Aisha
yesterday. All those promises which was broken, was
all written there. Hais. Made me hate the place! (;
But yes, i do miss you! & Loveyou!
♥

Happy! (:

2009-05-10T08:14:00.002-06:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BROTHER!
Finally you're 17. I wish you all the best in life.
Be someone better pls. & yes, i love you.
♥ Without you, my life is nothing.
You make me love home.
(: I love you bro!!
♥

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY LOVELY MUM!
I love you till death! (:
♥ Stay with me mum!

& To every mum, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

(: hELLO PPEO!

2009-05-07T19:18:00.001-06:00

MAJOR WUSHU FOR ME & ZULL (:

I LOVE MY DEAR FRIENDS!

((:

broken.

2009-05-05T02:45:00.001-06:00

` When you have loved unconditionally one man and
lost that love, it leaves a wound that never heals, a
sad and broken heart, a void forever.

` I wish I was a kid again, because skinned knees are
easier to fix then broken hearts.

Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you
love more than yourself.

Memories are the best souvenirs.

If I could have one lifetime wish, one wish that would come true,
I'd pray to God with all my heart,
for yesterday. And you!

(((:(:

2009-05-04T05:23:00.011-06:00

You said i was the prettiest and you tackled me & i trusted you.
In the end you left me with a BIG question mark on my head.
I wished for you to come back to me. But no longer do i wanna
wish for that. I've learnt my lesson not to trust people like you.
& you're just someone not worthy. I'm no longer wasting my life
for a loser like you. I'm moving on. ♥

` Just the thought of being with you
tomorrow gives the strength to go on today.
♥♥♥

True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.
It's when he ignores you and you still love him. Its when he
loves another but you still smile and say ' i'm happy for you.
' When all i really do is cry & cry!

I want you to want me.

Its over tho.

2009-05-03T00:16:00.005-06:00

HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY!

♥ I still remember.
(:

Though we don't love each other anymore. I still remember you & this day.
We expected to come till here, but somehow we didnt. We went wrong
during the trip! (: I don blame you or myself. I just think its suppose
to happen so it did. & now you're with someone else, i wish you all
the best. You wouldnt be forgotten no matter what. I thank you
for being there when i needed you. & Thanks for being a Gf i
loved so much. (: #22!
It would always remain.

LIFE IS JUST FULL OF MEMORIES !
♥

Exams

2009-05-02T01:07:00.006-06:00

I wonder what i did to deserve this painful problem.
I just thought it was over & wouldnt come back.
But i was wrong. It came back & will it ever go?
): I need you now & always.
♥

Good afternoon readers.

Its ~~3.11pm~~ 4.57pm. I wanted to blog just incase i don at night.
LOL! Just wanted to finish my countdown successfully. (:
Anyways i woke up pretty late though i slept alil early yesterday
night. Caught up with my peaceful sleep. Lynn was messaging me
the whole night, distracting my sleep.
I manage to ignore it. ♥

I talked to Jivinia today. *Random*! I don know what else to
type. HAHAHHAHAHA! (:

I wanna dye my hair after my N's. But afraid i'm gonna spoil
my hair. I've got so many plans after my N's. I just tryna study
right now. & LATER ENJOY! LOL! Simple piercings too. (:
BUT NO RELATIONSHIP. Enjoy life to the fullest before i get
into something serious. LOL! Hoping to keep up with my words.

Oh, i was supposed to study last night ey? HAHAH. I ended up
watching television & disturbing lynn & rajes. ): I wonder how am
i gonna study. Can i be smart originally? :/

` I'm gonna do something productive. Maybe watching television.
LOL! I'm quite sleepy. Might head to bed anytime. ahah.

Wait, i realize that there is so many people smoking in my class.
There's a new smoker in the club. Don worry not me. Its been 2
years since i smoked. (:

Bye readers. WILL DEFINITELY BLOG TOMORROW.
The day i and she were waiting for as arrived.
AHAHAH!

ANOTHER ONE MORE DAY TO GO!
(:

Meet my friend, Kunjina Lynneth Sorera.

Hahah! I'm bored.

2009-05-01T06:12:00.003-06:00

Suhee is sick & feeling dizzy ):

Another 2 more days (: I wonder why is this so fast.
LOL! But everything happens for a reason..
Feel it & never look back.
I'm over it.

Dear lord, don torture the girl who has done nothing
but just to love. I don think she deserves anything. She's
always the one losing out. Make her win this time round.
& i would pray for you. (: I love you darling.
♥♥♥

Why is all my friends suffering from the word LOVE?

I changed my blog skin & music. I'm in love with it now.
(; Will change it soon.

Bye goodnight. Needa study right not.

fj

2009-04-29T07:02:00.002-06:00

Another FOUR more days. (:

I'm happy for it.

Baby baby?

?

2009-04-28T06:02:00.003-06:00

I'm loving the moments i spend with you.
♥

I cant think of any post. All i wanna say is, I'm enjoying
my life right now. I don have any distractions.
& I want this to maintain till my N's.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY.
♥

Another 5 More bloody days! ARGH!
):

`Baby, i need you no more.

(: are you?

2009-04-23T22:53:00.003-06:00

Happy 15 years & four months to myself.

I'm really happy this days. I got no idea why. LOL!
SMILING & SMILING ♥ Thanks god. Now i believe everything
happens for a reason.

` I don trust God helping the one who prays.
& leaving the one who doesnt pray. (:
He's really fair. THANK YOU GOD!

Haha, i don think i will be finding my right now.
& I don trust the one i'm gonna be attach with now,
is my life. So i rather not give a F about relationship now.
It can be sweet but HURTING at the same time. Hmph!

Anyways, my day is pretty boring. Woke up 10 plus.
Messaged Kumaran,Rajes,Roops & Zullaihah?
Than was lazing around. Took my shower
& now its around one plus. Gonna meet my
friends later.

Oh mummy called, she asked me if i was better.
Than i said no. Its getting worst. She told me she
would take me to HL later in the evening.
Mummy i love you so much ♥♥♥

[Edited];

Came back after meeting my dearest friends.
Thanks for visiting my darlings. ♥
I LOVE YOU ALL!

The one who came was
Rajes,Lynn,Zull,Aisha & Deepa. LOL!

I am so bored. Goodbye.

I TALKED TO M JIVINIA WHILE SHE WAS WAITING
FOR HER DEAREST BOYFRIEND ! LOL!

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((: hello.

2009-04-23T05:11:00.003-06:00

Baby, i miss you alr. ♥

Skipped school today. Went to see the doctor today. LOL!
Woke up with so many messages. So lovely to see them.
(: But sorry people for not attending school. I got two
infection. ARGH ! Hate being sick. My lips are so dead.

` I broke the promise again. I am forever like this. ):

Talking to Rajes right now. She's having problems.

Now i'm perfectly fine. (:

Love bites, photos so close, KISSES?
Its really over right now. My love has
faded TOTALLY! ♥

Met my friends after school today. Than we went to BP.
Than Norma called me to meet her,Kadar & Buvana.
&&&&&&&&&&&&& JOHN :/!
It was really fun.

I'm very lazy ♥

(:

2009-04-22T05:46:00.003-06:00

X
My simple & single life. ♥

I'M LIVING A VERY DIFFERENT LIFE RIGHT NOW.
I'M FINALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW. & I'M GLAD I DIDNT CHEAT
MY EX IN ANYWAYS. HAHAHAH! (:

Anyways things are over right now. Over means REALLY over.
Oh Shamini, i needa update you right now. LOL! (:
I'm really tired. Just TOOK my shower.
Will be talking on the phone & heading
to bed after dinner (:

Goodnight my dear lovers;

I miss him/her right now ):

* I've got hawt pictures in my friendster. Check them out.
♥Its the 22nd. Her anniversary?

Girl, i hope you wouldnt destory that baby. I really pray!
(: Its so worth bringing a child to the world. Don spoil
its happiness. Please ! ):

?

2009-04-22T05:35:00.000-06:00

I FIND IT SO TRUE. GOSH! WHERES MY RIGHT ONE NOW?!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

(: i was really smiling away!

2009-04-20T06:02:00.003-06:00

Did i see my dream baby?

I bump into him quite alot of times. [Last week till this week].
Anyways must i really see that fcuking shit? Why god.
Why me? You made me feel even more weaker right
now. My bloody eyes filled with SOOO much of tears.
Yearning for happiness. I cant face this world right now.
Seems so easy. But for me. No! Really.

I don want this anymore. Please leave me?
I know what to do. I'm gonna go for the person
that loves me to forget everything. Will it solve
everything? Let me fake that love out at least.
I bring fake happiness to my LIFE ! ):

` i'm gonna write to Shamini. Bye !

i hate being hurt.

2009-04-18T23:46:00.003-06:00

I HAVE THREW AWAY SOME THINGS AWAY FROM MY LIFE !

I ONLY NEED MY FRIENDS RIGHT NOW. I'VE LOST SO MUCH

IN LIFE THAT I CANT AFFORD TO LOSE ANYTHING ANYMORE!

MY LIFE, I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. IF I'M DOING THE BAD THING

& YOU'RE THINKING I'M BAD, PLEASE FO MY BAD LIFE THEN.

I'VE PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTANDS THE WAY I FEEL RIGHT NOW.

& I THINK ITS MORE THEN ENOUGH. I KNOW I SHOULDN'T HAVE

CRIED ! SLAP ME EVERYONE ! I AM SUPPOSED TO BE FCUKING STRONG

BUT I SPOILED EVERYTHING ! I AINT STRONG YET ! YES, EVERYONE

I'M NOT. I DESERVE SO MANY SLAPPINGS FROM SO MANY PEOPLE.

& I THINK I'M FALLING BACK AGAIN, INFACT ALREADY FELL BACK.

SO MANY PEOPLE WITH DIFFERENT ADVICES, THINKING ITS SO EASY.

BE IN MY PLACE & YOU'LL KNOW HOW IT FEELS. & THAN I WILL SAY

THOSE EASY WORDS YOU'LL USED TO SAY.

` I THINK I'M TROUBLING SOME PEOPLE'S LIFE. IN ORDER TO BE A LONER,

I GOTTA DELETE MY FRIENDSTER & BLOGGER OFF. YES, SOON I'M GONNA

DO THAT. LET ME GET EVERYONE'S NUMBER BEFORE I DO ANYTHING.

& MY LIFE WOULD BE A LITTLE MORE DIFFERENT. ♥ I PROMISE.

BIGGEST MISTAKE I'VE EVER DONE WAS TO BELIEVE LIES.

I CANT WRITE ANYMORE ! I KNOW PROBLEMS WILL COME.

FCUK MY LIFE ! SERIOUSLY! STRESSED! I CANT STUDY!

I KNOW I NEED YOU FOR EVERYTHING I DO.

COME? I'M WAITING FOR YOU DEEP INSIDE.

FASTER BEFORE ITS TOO LATE. ):

I MISS MY HAPPIEST MOMENT.

* I'm having my mid-year next week. I'm not prepared at all.

ARGH! I'm gonna fail badly. THATS FOR SURE !!!!

`It takes a strong heart to love but it takes an even stronger
heart to love after its been SHATTERED !

Sports Carnival

2009-04-17T02:18:00.002-06:00

ISABEL YOU ROCK ! WE DID OUR BEST!
EVEN WITHOUT CHEERLEADING, WE
DID OUR BEST & GOT THIRD! (:
YAY! IM SO HAPPY!

I am really exhausted right now. Really feeling so tired.
We had our Sports Carnival today. Took part in quite a
number of races/competition. Don worry, we didnt win any!
LOL, i back out the running today. Got scared after seeing
all the runners. LOL! They all are from T&F ! ):
Best friend's race, i was with Fazalina. HAHAHAHHAHAH!
It was funny but fun also. The bomb was WATERMELON
EATING! I TOOK PART ! LOL! I eat like never eat before.
The juice dropping all over. ARGH! I and zull took turns. LOL!
& THE VIKING WE WERE IN THE URGE OF WINNING!
Breada fell & did i? LOL! ): OVERALL= LOST! BUT
FUN =100%!! After that was cheerleading & cheers.
We didnt dance for cheerleading this year. Isabel got first
for the cheers. I guess gonna have sore thoart soon ):

NOW I', GONNA SLEEP! BYE!

(:

2009-04-15T06:31:00.004-06:00

I'm more cooler right now (: Not so angry yet still angry.
Showing faces to people around. Hais it just doesnt work
anymore i guess. ANNOYED! SUPPER ANNOYED!

Whatever SLUT (:

2009-04-15T02:29:00.004-06:00

Firstly sorry, my post is gonna be alil Harsh.
(:

WHAT THE FCUK ARE YOU THINKING IN YOUR DAMN MIND MAN?
DOES ROMANCE INVOLVES IN ALL FCUKING RELATIONSHIP?
WHY CANT YOU HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT ROMANCE?
WILL YOU DIE? WILL YOU EVER HAVE A RELATIONSHIP
WITHOUT ROMANCE OR SEX?! FCUKING HELL! I'M JUST
ASKING YOU THIS? SO WHAT THE FCUK DO YOU THINK?
JUDGING THE BOOK BY ITS COVER? LOOKING AT SOMEONE
& TELLING WHETHER ARE THEY GOOD IN BED & THEN YOU
GO FOR THAT PERSON? SO AM I?! FCUK YOU BASTARD!
YOU ARE JUST A BLOOD SUCKER! IF I EVER COME ACROSS
YOU IN LIFE! TRUST ME, YOU WILL SERIOUSLY GET IT.
& YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A STABLE STEAD! YOU'RE
GONNA BE A PROSTITUTE! YOU EXPECT ME TO BE YOUR
STEAD & LOSE MY FCUKING VIRGIN TO YOU? FY!
JUST FCUK OFF SLUT, BITCH, HORRIBLE SUCKER!

` Argh, i'm just so pissed off right now. Not only now, ever since i heard that!
Anyone wanna know? Just give me a call (: I would tell you all. But not ALL!
Only some close ones. ARGH! I WANNA SLAP THAT BASTARD!

hello i'm bored.

2009-04-13T01:20:00.005-06:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY SUHANA!

SORRY I DON HAVE ANY PIC WITH YOU.

): SOON ALRIGHTS? ENJOY!

LOVE YA !

We should move on as one family. & never go apart.

With your loves, i'm here right now.

I love you girls.

I took all the pictures from Rajes thumbdrive (:

I lost weight compared to all the pictures there.

Ms Chiew asked me something scary today. LOL!

But obviously i lied to her. ): Nevermind.

Problems everywhere, just gotta manage everything

now (:

Managed to talk things out with Jivinia & Lynneth.

I have second thinking right now. I don wanna betray

hin right now. I just feel so aimless now. I'm the cause for

everything single thing. But i don wanna go for a Girl this

time right now. I think i had enough already. ): Relationship

& me are VERY FAR AWAY NOW! I hear the word love only,

i get scacred. My heart beats really fast. ): Why is that so?

Everytime i cross your house, i'm hoping not to see you with

someone else. I just love being lonely. Though friends are

saying bad things about you. I don agree, deep down you're

still in my heart. Its really stupid thinking that.

Jivinia; All the best for your new love (: Like you said,

you are happier with that person. Keep smiling.

& don get yourself hurt dear. Deep down, i'm still watching

over you. & you can get updated about me thru here.

Last dedication to my Love.

Its been so long. That i haven't seen your face.

I'm tryna be strong. But the strength i have is washing

away. It wont be long before i get you by my side. And just

hold you, tease you and squeeze you. Tell you whats been in my mind.

I cant lie. I miss you much. Watching

everyday that goes by. I miss you much.

Tell i get you back i'm gonna try. Yes, i miss

you much. Yes you are the apple of my eye.

Girl i miss you much. I miss you much.

Cause you were my Homie, lover & now friend.

I wanna make up right now.

Wish we never broke up right now.

We need to link up right now.

Now everyone knows that its over! TOTALLY over! ):

But i think i have already moved on. With the weakest heart

& the sweetest love from K. I thank him to pull me till here.

& i've made my mind for -------! ): Thats it. Please don question me.

I WANNA FUCKING HELL MOVE ON! PLEASE!

THANK YOU.

`Isnt it strange how LOVE can be the happiest

thing ever but also cause the most pain and yet

everyone keeps searching for it.

AHAHAH!

2009-04-12T01:10:00.007-06:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY LACHME ACERNO THANESH!♥

The party was the happening one i ever went for.
Pillow fights,Dance floor & DELICIOUS food.
Everything was the best. & i wont forget
anything. I would treasure this party.

` I enjoyed the party till i got a phone call. All my mind were to the call.
I was so disturbed. Felt like breaking down. Wanted to hug someone.
Wanted to talk to someone. I didnt wanna disturb anyone while
having fun. I'm just to soft hearted. ARGH! I cant help it.
But i'm still following your shadows. Though i'm belonging
to someone else now. I cant forget you (:

* Will upload pictures soon. I wore dress. LOL!

Nice shot. Look at Kumaran. ^

He date me out. I'm his right now. I love you baby;

We will prove everyone else that we're not like them
(:

More pictures in my Friendster (:

Take care & have a good day.

HAPPY EASTER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAC !

2009-04-11T08:24:00.009-06:00

I MISS THE MOMENTS AT ITE CLEMENTI NOW.
ME & LYNN FOOLING OURSELVES AROUND.
GOING TO CLASS LATE. AS OUR WISH.
I SWEAR ITS GONNA SUCK GOING
BACK TO STC NOW. ): I WANT
MORE FUNS! LYNN, I WILL
MISS YOU MAN. AHAHA.
YOU TORTURING ME
OUTSIDE CLASSES.
I MISS IT ALL!

& AISHA SMILING FOR EVERYTHING! & TALKING TO YOU
WHEN I WAS DISTURBED BY SOMETHING ♥ I THINK YOU
WERE THE BEST MAN! I REALLY WANNA THANK YOU
SO MUCH. I KNOW WITHOUT YOU I WOULDNT BE
HERE NOW. & I HOPE YOU WOULD STAY WITH ME
FOREVER & NEVER STEP OUT. THO WE GOT CLOSE
ONLY THIS YEAR. I hope you would continue to shine
in my life. & i promise to keep you close always.
SUHEE LOVES YOU DEAR! ♥
?!

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY LACHME ARCENO THANESH!
THANKS FOR THE BIG PARTY.
I LOVE YOU LOADS (:
♥ HUGS!

2009-04-10T04:54:00.004-06:00

VAIN POT!

PRETTY!(renukka)

WANNA BE!!

POTHUM LA!! HAYOO!!

WHATEVER!!

SEXY!!

VAIN POT!!

Jagades here (:

All these people are soooooooooooooooo VAIN!!!

DS

2009-04-09T08:31:00.001-06:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY TIVYA DHARSHINI!
♥

I've got things to write. Will write tmr.
Bye!

2009-04-06T19:25:00.002-06:00

I'm in school when everyone else is at Clementi Ite.
Oh, i'm with Rajez ((: Waiting for her to complete
her Coursework so that Mr Dill can drive us to Ite!
LOL! Gromming really sucked. Its so boring that i wanna
sleep. Lynn is not in school & i've got no entertainment.
Yes, Zullaihah is also not here ):

I cant belive it i actually bleed so much. Mummy took me to
the hospital. Here i am with a bandage in my hand. Its very
painful but i could bear it. Cause what i saw just killed me.
& that was even more pain. Everyone is asking me for the reason.
But i cant tell ANYONE! Or else, everything would just go wrong.
ARGH! I really cant understand why i'm living for. I find it so hard
to make someone understand me! I'm the main problem. FOR EVERYTHING!
I CANT WAIT TO LEAVE THIS WORLD. I SWEAR I WOULD BE THE HAPPIEST ONE!
))))))))))))))))))))))): I CANT LOSE ANYTHING ANYMORE. IJNY!

Anyways here's this conversation with someone.

Person 1: Hey do you wanna get back to ***?
Me: Nop, i don want anymore. Why?
Person1 : I will do anything to get you'll back.
Me: Really? If you can bring a dead body alive, than i can
tell you, you will bring us back together.
Person 1: Silence! [All the way!]
Me: Hang up!

ARGH! BORING! DON ASK ME WHO! BYE!

i hate this part right here.

2009-04-05T04:13:00.002-06:00

I feel better when she's watching over me.

& i died at the moment i saw that.

I'm just living for the sake of living.

i'm aimless ):

I SWEAR!

I cant take it any longer.
Thought that we were stronger.

& i will love the person who loves me.
And keep my kisses secured!
Cant lose it anymore.
Its just an disgust!

Baby you're mine still?

2009-04-03T07:25:00.003-06:00

HAPPY LEGAL EIGHTEEN NANDINI DEVI (:
I will give you your prezzie soon babe.
I love you & may god bless.

I've got 20 people online now. But i'm appearing offline. LOL!
Simply cause i'm lazy. I don wanna chat. & i don have the dam mood.
& i put my status as Busy. Now i'm chatting with Lynn & Shaista.
Cool & fun people. Hoarr! (:

(: School was pretty fun. It ended earlier cause of Theresian Award.
Met Izabella after so long. Obviously i missed her. Plus Jivinia also :/
As usual, talked alot of craps. Bought her to the hall for Cheerleading
performance. Than we left school. She needed to go back home cause of
somethings. Sent her back & we headed to Tiong to meet the Birthday girl.
Gosh, i saw her after so LONG! I seriously missed her HELL much! (:
We caught up loads of talkings. & Lynn asshole got me into trouble.
But i escaped. Hehex. :D

After i came back home. I tidy up my house. Later on i went to have a
warm bath. Wow. Damn shoik. LOL! Than i used the computer awhile.
Got drifted away cause of my phone. So i offed my computer.
Talked on the phone for about 3 hours. & now i'm back here.
I'm so tired now. LOL!

** Lynn is weird to me now. Nevermind.

Might be meeting Nandini & Lynn tomorrow.
Yeah FUN! Gonna enjoy.

& Lynn told me that she's gonna call tonight. (: I'm
gonna entertain her. Hoping nothing would go wrong.
(: I love myself now i guess.

************ Jivina called me after three day.

Tomorrow i'm going to the prison. Pretty scary.
Didnt tell anyone yet. Hoping i would come back.
)))))))))):

There is this guy who gave me his number & said
we might make it to future. WTH! Its really pretty
scary Lynn ask me not to call. So i wouldn't.

SOMEONE WANTS TO DATE ME.
WHATS HAPPENING?

SCARY!

I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE.

2009-04-01T06:10:00.004-06:00

What do young girls do when they're stressed now?
Slash hands are the solution to most. Doing that
isn't wrong to my eyes. That doesn't mean i'm doing it
for someone right. Ha! Grow up man ):

As for today. I hate everything. I'm emo-ing half the day.
I didnt like things around me. But finally i talked to Norma
& Buvana. Guess what? They thought i was attach with John!
AHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! So funny lar. But he's cute.
I guess he told them or smth. So rubbish man. I only saw him like
5 times or more. SO fast Att? GROSS! Never am i gonna get att with
him. LOL! Anyways I HATE SCHOOL! After school met cousin.
Forever he's late. But fun. WE DID SOMETHING WHICH IS SO
WRONG! GOT THREE OF US HIGH! AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!
Damn funny. (: COUSINS=FUN! Yeah! Anyways i Visited Aunt again.
SHE'S ONE OF THE BEST! (: I wanted to come back home. So i ditched
the both & came back home. Cause i needed to do something. ((:
FIGHTS FIGHTS FIGHTS! I HATE THIS MAN! TODAY I'M HAVING
THE ROOM FOR MYSELF. ITS GONNA BE HARD. BUT NEVERMIND!
I CANT SLEEP FOR SURE. FCUK IT MAN! I HATE HOME! GONNA BE
HOME ALONE WITH MUM! ARGH! FCUK EVERYTHING! MAYBE SHE'S
HATING HER OWN DAUGHTER! WHERE ON EARTH CAN YOU FIND A HOME
LIKE MINE! LAST TIME SHE USED TO ADVICE OTHERS. NOW, SHE HERSELF
DOING SO MANY STUPID STUFFS TO HER OWN DAUGHTER! KILL ME PLS!
SO MANY UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE AROUND! WHY! I HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS!

` Babylove, expected to see you today. You didnt turn up. Hope to see you soon.
I'm missing you alr. I love you.

`Shamini, i know i'ma bastard for not writing to you. I just trying to forget.
& I'm doing it ((: *CLAPS FOR ME! *

* Another 3 more days. I'm so scared now. I will miss everything (:

ARGH!

2009-03-31T05:13:00.002-06:00

FIRSTLY, I HATE BEING IN SCHOOL & HOME.
I'M FAKING SO MUCH. ARGH! ):
GOD, TAKE ME AWAY NOW.

Anyways,

Zullaihah Honeyfa; I really can't believe whats happening/happened.
Its really stupid. But lets accept the fact & LAUGH! (:

Irfanah; LAUGH FOR WHAT WE TOLD YOU TODAY!

I'M SUPPOSED TO CRY FOR WHATS HAPPENING BUT LAUGH ALSO!
I HAVEN TOLD ANYONE YET. ): NEVERMIND. Love me people.
ANOTHER TROUBLE TODAY! WHY THE FCUK DID I DO?
I'M GONNA RUN OUT OF MY HOUSE SOONER OR LATER.
& ONLY MY COFFIN WILL RETURN. MARK MY WORDS.
):

Another 4 more days. Count down people.
I'll miss you'll! ♥ I LOVE YOU'LL.

Babylove; Nothing is in my hands. Sorry. But i love you.
(: Light kiss made us wild.

Bitch, leave me alone. I HATE LIVING SUCHA MISERABLE LIFE!

(((((((((:

2009-03-30T05:40:00.004-06:00

Babylove, its for you.
♥

Stupidity took over me. Yet, i'm not loving it truly. ARGH!
I wish i was never born man. I wanna be at Girls Home now.
Yes, in another few more days. I shall enjoy till i'm outside. But
i'm sure i will enjoy my days outside. Its so difficult. ):
Everyone is facing so many problems.
♥ i love you all dears.

Yes, i agree i was an LESBIAN! What can i do now?
Everything is over & now you're pulling my past?
I'm facing it all alone. She's not with me now.
I'M ALONE! A F* whose so STUPID!
I will end my life sooner or later.
When the hardest part comes,
i wouldn't be here anymore.
To you & she, don cry. Cause i'm here
& you're there, don act when you see
the coffin! CAUSE ITS ALL FAKE!
(: I'm trying to move on.
Memories brings back
hurt & tears.

PS: I updated the Clique blog ♥♥

Babylove, i'm sorry darling. I love you.
(: Stay & never leave.

Sister's love!

2009-03-29T05:40:00.006-06:00

I LOVE JAGADESWARI & SHAMINI RAJ!

LOL! Check out my sister's blog dudes.
She wrote sweet things about me. How sweet?
More Vodka & Bacardi. Maybe something diff eh.
LOL! I'm very bored with the same ones. (:
We shall catch up during the nights where i cant
sleep & DON GET DRUNK EVIL! (:

Yesterday night, i talked to Guna. LOL!
Sucha entertaining fellow. I'm gonna expect his
call more now. He talks the fact. Yes the FACT!
& he told me about Navy life. Its so fun! I want!
(((((((: I love his LAME JOKES!
Call me again PLS!

(: (: (: (: (:

Baby, sorry that i cheated you. I know i can't have you
back anymore. So i'm moving on. The things we've done is
gonna haunt us forever. & I'm sorry. Its just that it got us both,
wild. I apologize & i stepped over you. I'm moving on now.

2009-03-28T23:27:00.005-06:00

My March Hols were pretty fun with different people (:
More pictures to come up.
Stay tune dudes.
♥

I LOVE MY FAMILY!

2009-03-28T22:37:00.001-06:00

I miss you but i gotta move on.
Will you come back?
):

LOGN POST!

2009-03-27T23:32:00.004-06:00

I LOVE 4 ST ROSE'09! I THNK WE'RE THE BEST CLASS EVER!
I'M GLAD TO HAVE EVERYONE IN MY LIFE. WE SHOULD
NEVER APART! I LOVE YOU'LL ♥♥♥♥♥

Noone seem to be understanding me lately.
They think its so easy. They want me to react
to it right away. When i'm the one feeling the miserable
pain. NO, I'M ANTI-LOVE! I can't get hurt anymore.
Thats my decision. Anyone wanna rebel? I won't give a fcuk.

Anyways

Shamini; Thanks for wasting your night talking to me.
You really made me feel better. Noone else talked to me this way.
Really thanks alot of understanding me & making things better.

Zullaihah Honeyfa; I'm really sorry for what i've done. As i promise,
i wouldn't do it again. Don think i'ma bad person. I've got a good heart.
It just takes time to prove ourself. I know you can understand me well.
& thanks for wasting your time talking to me alone. Though i couldn't
say everything i could. I said almost everything! (: Thanks babe.

Rajes Mahen; Thanks for making me feel my past. I was glad you came
over & talked to me. & You wasted your nights hearing my cries & screams!
I think you knew the problem better than anyone else does. But i think
you wouldn't share it out with anyone else. Yes, i'm feeling much better now.
ALIL MORE CONFIDENCE. & i liked the part where you told me,
When *** look back, ***'ll realize ***'s actually losing someone great. LOL!
I still admire the way you told me that.

THOSE THREE MADE A BIG DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE! (:
& I PROMISE TO LOVE THEM FOREVER! ♥

` I don know whether am i taking the right step without you.
I miss you. But i have to accept the fact that everything is
over. & we've become apart.

` I've been doing so many mistakes man. I hate the way
i judge my life. Lastly

R.I.P Keith Lucas David.
):

lAC!

2009-03-27T08:58:00.001-06:00

She's a slut, yet a sweetest slut.
I love you dear!
((:

In step ((:

2009-03-25T01:41:00.005-06:00

Its going to be bad now.

I'm back finally to blog (:

School isn't any good. Its just bad. Though i do enjoy being in school more.

I just hate home. I can't stand staying at home. I wish i'm taken away from this

damn world. CAUSE I HATE THIS WORLD ALOT! (: Anyways my life is being

bad for the past few months/weeks. Anyways i don't wanna say anything about

my day or week. Cause there is someone who is spying me. SO GOOD LUCK TO THAT

PERSON! (((((((((((((((((((((((: *Hugs!*

Special someone : You told me you would wait till my exams finish. If you really want

me, all i can tell you is, WAIT FOR ME. I don have the feelings yet. & it might come.

(: But i'm not ready to go on a relationship now. So if you can really wait, than i will

consider it. Till then, lets not mix the word love & friendship. (: Take care.

****AHAHAHAHAH! SHE LOOKS TOTALLY HORRIBLE IN HER NEW PICTURES. LOL!

GONNA LAUGH SO LOUD WITH MY FRIENDS. BOO SLUT! (:

I'm sure you're very spoiled cause of her. Bet me. Cause all she does is to

think about herself. Not you. So good luck to you. HAHAHAHAHAH!

SPOILED BRAT!

GOD I NEED YOU NOW!

2009-03-19T20:34:00.004-06:00

I hope its not love!

Oh my god. How can i do this? Why am i sucha bitch?!
Why can i love this person AGAIN! When its already
two year since i met that person. The person came back
into my life again. YES! I'm worried i might fall back.
Fish, god i cant love anyone. I really give up. I gave up
on the word LOVE! I swear. I don wanna be betrayed
again. I know the pain for love. I am over *******!
& now another one on the way. What the F is happening!
??????????????????????????????????????????????????!
Must i be fooled again? Or was i meant to be fooled?!
I'm supposed to love once & not again. Cause i knew
i couldn't feel the hurt again. ARGH! I hate myself, SUGANES!
* The person is calling me. ARGH! Shall i answer?
Or must i start to avoid? God i need you very badly.
I'M SUCHA BITCH! ): You made me do this.

Will that person leave me if i am with that person?[Stead wise!]
Will i be fooled again? Am i starting the right path?
Or must i not move to love yet. SOMEONE HELP ME!
PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

(: I am jealous!

2009-03-17T22:02:00.008-06:00

The hardest Seperation ):

2009-03-17T08:13:00.004-06:00

The hardest seperation.

I find myself getting back to my olden days again. I am starting
to miss everything. I looked back at my life. I read/glance through
most of the things we used to share pastly. All the letters/photos/
messages/musics/poems/things. I miss everything. I used to be
so obsessed over you. I still know how i actually loved/love you.
How many memories we used to share? When i have my musics
on, my mind tends to go wild. I don know. I think of the past.
Where i used to be so controlled. When i wanted to Smoke badly,
you used to stop me. You cared for me. Now when i wanna smoke,
i've got noone to stop. Even when i wanted to Drink, i always thought
about you. Now when i drank, all i could think was i had/have noone.
When you were by my side, you guide me thru. Now i don know what
i'm doing. I seriously feel so lost. I do the craziest stuff. Yes, i dosed myself
badly. I couldn't wake up. My head when spinning. Vomitted badly. I
had noone to console me. Cause only YOU knew my life. Noone else!
& you weren't there when i needed you badly. I might be crazy!
But its the fact that IMISSYOU badly. I don know was it,
True love, Affection,Attraction,Crush,Past time. I don know.
I thought it my true love. I just don understand myself at all.
I need someone to guide my life. I miss my olden days so much.

PS: Its not about one person only. Its a mixtured feeling.
Involves three people. (:

PS: Don question me about this post.

& its not fake. A real one. Irfanah, i made it interesting for you.

I love someone !

2009-03-15T20:11:00.001-06:00

I'M BADLY IN LOVE!
♥

FCUK YOU BITCH! YES YOU!

2009-03-14T06:22:00.003-06:00

Hello World. I'm back in action ((:

Anyways today is another slacky day.
Woke up about 10 plus. Than talk on
the phone for about 1 hour. I went
to take my shower. Than i got ready and
left to Tiong to buy cake and Old Chang Kee!
After buying everything, i headed to Mum's
office. Than waited for SOOOO long. Finally
they cut cake. Than eat everything, we left to
Gym. LOL! I was just sleeping there (:
I WAS QUITE TIRED! Than lunch-ed! (:
AHAHHAHAHAHHHA! I very lazy already.
Anyways this was the conversation with RoopS (:
I find it cute plus funny.

Roops: Hey gal, how are you?
Me: *Blur* I'm fine. Thank you.
Roops: Where are you la?
Me: Redhill. Why?
Roops: Oh, I saw someone like you at Douby Gaut[sp?].
Me: *Random Guess* I think its my sister.
Roops: Does she has curly hair?
Me: Yes.
Roops: Short?
Me: Yes.
Roops: Yaya. It must be her (:

Its continued actually. AHAHAHHAHAHHA!
Its quite funny if you read it properly.
(:

i'm gonna continue playing Pet Society.
Its so FUN! Bye world.

Zullaihah: Hurry back home baby. IMY!

I LOVE MISSION ALOT!

2009-03-13T06:10:00.007-06:00

Sorry for not blogging yesterday. Cause it was seriously
a busy day i guess. LOL!

Yesterday
Had our Mission in the church. It was an wonderful EFL.
I had so much of fun. & I've learnt so many things.
Thanks to whoever were involved. Anyways I cried thrice
yesterday during the Mission. I told myself not to. But I just
couldn't control. I felt as tho God was listening to my cries.
But nevermind, I still let everything out (: After Mission, we
headed to Lachme's house. I fell in love with her house. Its
so beautiful. Was in her room doing nonsense as usual. (:
Than it was getting late already. I, Zoo & Lynn actually cabbed
back home. We dropped Lynn somewhere near BM. The Taxi
driver was COOL! He made jokes man. HAHAHAHHAHAHHA!
I still remember man. (: Anyways once i reach home, i quickly
rushed back home. I changed. Left to meet Irfanah. Than
after running, i headed to meet my mummy and aunty. LOL!
Went to Gym. Exercised. We bus-ed to BM. Had Mac for dinner.
Came back home & KNOCKED OFF! I was excited for EFL!
(:

Today
Today was kinda slacked. Didnt really like EFL today.
ARGH! I find someone SOOOOOO cute! Okay girls.
I don like that person. I just find that person cute.
ARGH! I cant control. Anyways today was an combined
Mission thingy. I didnt really like it that way ):
I prefer to be the same group. * I wore outside clothes!
& Irfanah had bad cramps. So she didn't follow me to
ICA building. End up couldnt do my IC. ARGH!
Than bus-ed 33 to Tiong. Had early dinner with
Honeyfa. Okay i'm lazy right now. I will upload
today's pictures. Its nothing much tho!

& finally i'm over that problem. YAY ME!

Dearest, i was shocked with what you told me. I couldnt
bear to see you tear. I wanted to share the same tear with
you. But i was worried i was gonna make things worst. But
i'm sure nothing like that would happen. You don have to worry.
& i'm sure God always helps the good ones. & YOU ARE GOOD!
(: I love you always. I promise to be with you always.
Share your problems out darling.
♥

Dearest Irfanah Buzz, Take care. & Have loads of rest.
Don forget. Milo+Egg. AHHAAHA! Cute pig.
I love you always.
♥

PICTURE TIME (:
` I didnt i saw something wrong. My eyes is BIG!
ARGH! PAINFUL!

Overall i had fun with everyone. My class was united.
We did acting (: It was SOOOO fun! I love it so much.
♥ I love all my classmates. HAPPY FRIENDS!
Hols are gonna be tiring from me. I am gonna
use that week to relax & start studying when
school reopens. I HATE MY LIFE!
But i have no choice! I tried to love it.
But somehow i only love someone..

PS: Why is that person born so cute? ARGH! ):

Boring!

2009-03-13T05:53:00.003-06:00

1. Name a person after each letter.

A- Aisha
B- Brenda
C- Chris Wong
D- Desiree
E- Esther [I don know who is that]
F- Fazalina
G- Geraldine
H- Hiva Sis
I- Irfanah
J- Jivinia
K- Kadar
L- Lynneth
M- Mahendran
N- Normasitah
O- ?
P- Pamela Vijay
Q- ?
R- Rajes
S- Sulastri [Gosh, i miss her]
T- Tivya Dharshini
U- Uma [Rajes sister]
V- Vineshwary
W- ?
X- ?
Y- ?
Z- Zullaihah Honeyfa

2. Can R and S be in a relationship? [Rajes & Sulastri]
` Haha. If i'm not wrong, i think they were once.

3. How is G related to you? [Geraldine]
` My classmate.

4. Does Y know Z? [? & Zullaihah]
` No. Cause i don know anyone with Y!

5. If C betrays will you kill him/her? [Chris Wong]
` HAHAHAHHAHAHA! Definitely not.

6. If K steals your boyfriend, will you kill him/her? [Kadar]
` No. Cause i know she wont.

7. What if L tells you if he/she has a crush on you? [Lynneth]
` I will just laugh and say "You will never change" :D

8. Will you and M get into a fight? [Mahendran]
` Obviously. His my brother ^.^

9. Who does K have a crush on? [Kadar]
` Mike.

10. If W calls you a b*tch, what would you do? [ Noone]
` ------------

11. What's the relationship between you and E? [Esther]
` I don know her. Its my sister's friend. LOL!

12. Who does Z like? [ Zullaihah Honeyfa]
` LOL! Noone.

13. Who is I's best friend? [Irfanah]
` Zullaihah Honeyfa.

14. What colour does Y like? [Noone]
` ------------------

15. Where does F live? [Fazalina]
` I aint sure. Somewhere around Jurong i guess.

16. Have you and C been in a fight before? [Chris Wong]
` LOL! I think so.

17. Who is H's best friend? [Hiva Sis]
` I aint sure.

18. What can you say about X? [Noone]
` -------------------------

19. What if J tells you he/she likes you? [Jivinia]
` I swear i just happen to write her name. I didnt read the question to J. Anyways i don think
i need to state the answer. She will know it for sure :D

20. Can D ever like Z? (Desiree & Zullaihah Honeyfa).

` I think as a friend only. Nothing else.
(:

2009-03-13T04:29:00.007-06:00

Sorry for not blogging yesterday. Cause it was seriously
a busy day i guess. LOL!

Mission Week is Lovely.

2009-03-11T05:04:00.004-06:00

I SO HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE KEEP CALLING
WHEN I'M FCUKING HELL SLEEPING! ARGH!
I WAS WOKEN UP BY 17 MISSED CALLS.
I WAS SO IRRITATED! *FUCK IT!*

I'm yours forever.
Accept me.
(:

I really want Mission Week to continue. I don want any end
for it. Shit. Being in Mission Week makes me forget every
little/tiny sorrows i have. I felt so much better after Mission.
I know that God is everywhere actually. I only realized it today.
It was a great experience. But for now, i know God isn't around
me. I just need him to do whatever he's been doing for me.
But i didn't know you wanted to see me FOOLED/BETRAYED!
Its the hardest feeling ever. Oh ya, we had some BGR/GGR talks.
& WHATEVER HE SAY, IT WAS TRUE! GOSH! I felt so
guilty. So ashamed to face EVERYONE!Hopefully everything gets
better soon (: Send me an angel to love & talk too. ♥♥♥

Tomorrow might be going out after Mission i guess.
ARGH! I badly wanna sleep. I'm clearing my eye-bags!
Its getting waste. I miss you badly that i had to see my blood.
& i don know whats gonna happen next. I wish everything
would rest right now. I wanna enjoy. I don wanna cry anymore.
I got no more tears left. I want everyone to stay close with me
& never leave me. Cause i know you're all i can depend on now.
I love you babes ☺

I'm having my early dinner. Yummy (:
Mum is on leave today. Due to some reasons.

Baby, i know i can make it with you. I know we're meant
for each other. Turn back and look at me. Feel my love.
& take me back. & Hug me close and promise never to
let go. Cause what is done is already done. ): CBTM!

Pizza !

2009-03-10T03:16:00.006-06:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY BABY FAZA (:
Sorry i got no picture of you.

Oh my god. I don know which sucker made their phone kenna
confiscated. I was so IRRITATED! But nevermind. We still got
our Pizzas. But this time only 8 boxes. It was actually more than
enough. I ate three BIG pieces. BLOATED STOMACH! School
was slacked again. Okay i wanna sleep. Bye world.

Baby, now you suck. Yay!
(:

Mission week starting tomorrow. I hope it would be fun (:
Might be going out after that. Haha. Holidays next week.
I'm so excited. Gonna exercise only i guess. I'm training
myself for Navy (: Cant wait to know where i'm gonna end up.

FUCKING COMPUTER! STOP HANGING!
BASTARD!

Waiting & Waiting !

2009-03-09T04:41:00.003-06:00

You'll come back baby;

Its gonna be some random post.

Look here, everything is fine between us now.
I'm 'over' it i guess. & i hope. Just wanna let you
know that i cant see you spoiling your own damn life.
You've got everything people don have. Especially your
brains. Its so smart. I know where you can lead your life too.
I know your talents more than anyone DOES! Trust me. I might
not need to bother. But i somehow have guiltyness. Come'on la babe.
Do you see that people around are not BOTHERING about you? Even if
you can't, I CAN! I can see it with my own eyes. Why are you spoiling a life?
Make your life worth living (: I know how you are. When you fail, They are not
gonna stay by your side. They will just move on and on. & you'll be the one staying
back. Do you want that to happen to you? Think about all this okay? I know you
can do it. & if you wanna do it, you'll do it. Everyone knows it. So i hope my
post made you have your brains back. Start studying. & Shine everyones
life. Remember all your confidence you had. So many people looked
down on you. PROVE EVERYONE WRONG! I know you can do it.
All the best dude (:
I love you ♥

School was pretty slacked today. We didnt study at all.
For the whole day we didnt. LOL! Was freaking happy (:
Anyways after school headed to the Art room with Lynn, Lac & Honeyfa.
Helped Honeyfa paint her art work.Than headed to Vivo to get prezzies for
Fazalina. Than Mac for early dinner. But ended up Preethi eating my
burger. I'm so hungry now. ARGH! Might be eating later. No i will eat later!
Okay got to go now. I wanna go down soon. ♥♥♥

Take my hand. Take a breathe.
Hold me close. & take one step.
Keep your eyes locked on mine.

The feeling sucks !

2009-03-08T00:34:00.001-07:00

Yes, i'm betrayed.

I'm betrayed like some FOOL! Yes fool would be the right word.
You bloody baby! You will see someone who betray you in future.
I bet you man. I can tell you there. & you yourself will come finding
for me. Don worry, i will take you back as my closest one.
I didnt sleep well yesterday cause i was waiting for someone to
call & yet i didnt receive the call. I end up sleeping at 6am.
I don wanna elaborate my day. Its EFL next week. Gonna
enjoy like some SHIT (: Oh yeah, i am gonna meet Jivinia
sooner or later. I cant run away from problems.
Most probably meeting up to study only.
): I miss past so much. Make me wanna cry.
Only some might understand.
♥ Gonna do my research.
Bye world.

& i love you my lover.
No goodbyes.
Sweetest Hello for you.
We will start anew.
We're MADE for each other.

♥♥♥

PS: Sorry girls for betraying your trust. I didnt expect myself to
do this. I'm sorry. Don leave me. Pls. I only depend on you people.
HUGS EVERYONE!

Disturb-ed !

2009-03-07T00:44:00.005-07:00

Yes, i'm love sick.

I don feel good recently. Oh, thats a scene which affected me so much.
Gulityness. ARGH! Yes, i'm hurt now. I'm disturbed by things.
& it really affected me till i fail my EXAMS! WTF Is happening.
This is just not the OLD SUGANES I GUESS! ): I cry all night
just to make myself sleep early not wanting to disturb anyone. I'm feeling
so stupid. I don have the courage for anything. Yes i had the courage to tell
her, all she said was 'ITS PAST'! Wtf is wrong with her? My mind went so blank
when i saw that message. I felt betrayed. I'm feeling so scared to move on now. I
wanna be with you. I cant move on without you. Its just ~~alil~~VERY difficult. ARGHH!
Someone understand the way i feel and make me depend on you. I spoiled
someone's morning today. Why am i so unlucky? Even now tears are rolling down my
cheeks for no reason! I feel really dumb. God, take me away from this world.
I wanna stay by your side God. & i will take care of all my loved ones. ♥
& SOOOO MANY PEOPLE HAVING PROBLEMS AROUND ME!
God help each and everyone of them also.
Don forget to help me. I LOVE YOU BABY!

Jivinia, i miss you (:

Lynneth; I really wish i can be with you at this point of time.
Though i'm having problems also. I'm tryna help you also.
Anything, you can ring me up. I would definately help you.
I can lend you a shoulders too darling. & i love you always ♥

Gurpreet; I had a great walk with you yesterday. We talked so many
things. We came to know we shared the same problems. I understand your
feeling cause i'm in the same shoes as you. I told everything which was good
for you. I only can advice you. But you should take it okay. Be safe than sorry (:
I would be there for you always babe. I love you always ♥

Annoying Jagades; Don worry about anything. Stay strong always. I'm sure
god is there for you. Though i don listen to your problems, i'm still there for you
(: Cheer up okay. & stop crying. I love you sweetheart ♥

Shamini; I know i'm way late. But i was kinda disturbed of what you told me.
I too started to miss him after you told me that. Yes we'll used to be freaking close.
But i'm sure his watching over you still. You don worry alrights. Anything just message
or call me. I would help you out. & Will be there for you. I love you babe ♥

The rest i'm not gonna state it here as its too PERSONAL. I'm sorry.
Everyone, please take care of yourself. I don wanna lose any of you'll.
Be safe (: Hugs.

R.I.P John & Blacky ):
You'll always remain in our hearts .
We're gonna miss you.

I cant keep my heart to myself.

2009-03-06T05:50:00.003-07:00

Its not over yet;

School was pretty fun. Thanks Honeyfa for waiting for me.
& Going late to school together. LOL! It was the sweetest thing
ever babe. You mean the world (: love you always. PE was
AWESOME (: I love it so much. We won the game again ♥
After that lessons were BORING! Maths was slacked.
After school went straight to hall. Was waiting to screen the movie.
AHHAAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH! Only three people turn up!
BIGGEST WUSHU! We only earn $12.50 today.
ARGH! Better luck to us. Headed to Tiong after that.
Early dinner and chit chatted with my usual peoples.

Got to go now. Will upload pictures soon!
LOVE YOU WORLD!

A sexy hot babe sitting beside me (:

2009-03-05T21:07:00.002-07:00

Okay everybody. Im gon introduce someone very special to me. Who is always in my heart. And now, beside me. If i have to explain everything about her, It will take me years to finish. Cos, she's just too much to be explained. Let me discribe herand by the time i finish, try to guess who is it. Okay? Firstly, she is quite tall. She is black in colour. Her hair is pretty long and wavy like sameera reddy. She has pretty eyes like Aishwariya Rai. Her body is like Shreya's. Hey brains are like Sr nathans. Yes, thats how smart she is. She dances like Ciara. She sings like Rihanna. And she speaks as good as you think. She has got the whole hot factor! She's just so WOWWWWW! When she walks pass, its like sparkling hot fire walking pass you. And when she swiffs her hair, everyones eyes go big and mouth goes WIDE! I mean, REALLY WIDE! Yeah, oh man, when she smiles, its like Harini. Everyone will melt and faint! Goshh, I cant explain further. Like i said, it will never end today or tomorrow. It will take years. Yeah, now that she's beside me, you wont know how much im sweating now. I feel so damn nervous and i just feel like looking at her every second. Okay, im not gon waste time telling you guys all this. Im gon go and just admire her and feel jealous.. ARUGHH! Alright, take care people. Tag me on who you guys think the babe is. Okay?

Im leaving now.

Feeling really really, jealous.

Goodbye everyone. Adiyos Samango! :D

Argh.

2009-03-05T01:21:00.007-07:00

I was born unlucky.

To the one i need now:

If you have a problem with me, come and tell me off.
Don stop talking to me. You mean the world to me.
I thought you're the one who understood me well
after everything. & I don feel comfortable here.
Am i invisible? You can see me right? You know
when i'm beside you right. Don message me anymore.
Just call me and talk to me. Yes, i admit, i miss you.
I hate the way i lead my own life. Sorry.
& i love you. & i also know you're NEVER gonna
read this.

To the ones who said i showed attitude:
Hello to you all. Who the hell said i showed attitude the other day?
It wasnt my fault if my natural look is that way right? I cant be bothered.
Seriously. I know i didnt talk to one particular person. I didnt wanna interact
with you. I JUST DON WANT! Okay? Its your fault for coming late too.
Maybe i might be irritated, but i know i wasnt showing face. ^.^
Get a life man. Please. Not gonna go out for another outing in my life.
ARGH! Maybe with only one in the group.

~~To the one to who knows what happening and yet being not bothered:~~
Yes you. You know who you are. Why on earth are you doing this to me now?
Was it my fault if everything turned this way? Fine, i know its my fault.
But everyone needs another chance i guess. If ever noone gave you another chance,
you wouldn't be standing down here for sure. Didnt i give you another chance?
WHY! I just feel that i'm in an difficult position. Yes, i wanna GIVE up now.
But my heart feels so heavy. I cry everytime i wanna give up. I cant do anything
but just to watch everyone else moving on. You're everything i need! You're on my
mind always. I SWEAR! I promise to be good. Will you? Please. I really really need you
by my side NOW! I cant explain any further. Everything is hidden deep down my heart.
I cant speak things out to ANYONE! I just find it so hard. I am afraid i would cry.
I am scared people would take my words wrongly. I cant speak up for myself at this time.
I'm doing crazy things. WHY! i don know! I miss you very badly.
* Afterall, i'm the one who is treated badly.

To the one i spoke my heart out:
Thanks alot babe. If i didnt tell you, i wouldnt be here now.
I would have just dosed myself. You made me feel live was
worth.. But still i cant get the fact that this has happened.
I hope at least you would understand the way i feel now.
You put yourself in my shoes & talked to me. Seriously,
thanks alot. & i swear to love you forever.

Kadar, wondering why? Seriously thanks alot babe.
I wont forget your helps. You made me feel better
one day. Thanks. & i love you too darling.
& I hope i was there when you needed someone.

♥♥♥♥♥♥ I LOVE YOU & I HATE MYSELF.

PS: Sorry if my post is too harsh! I cant think anything right now.
Thing are getting worst day by day. So i had to say it.
I need the courage for myself NOW!

& i flopped my exams badly.
I got 10/20 for my tamil.
Maths was an ASS! I forgot the formulas.
Science, i finished the paper within 5 mintues
and slept. Cause i didnt study at all. ARGH!
How am i gonna answer? ILY!

Have faith (:

2009-03-03T00:59:00.008-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAMINI RAJ!
I LOVE YOU BABE.
MY CHOCOS?
(:

Too bad, you're fated as mine;

Being with Vittiya is supper FUN! I love her man. She's the entertainer.
AHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH! Saras is the cutest. Anyways when to her house
yesterday to celebrate her mum's birthday. We surprised everyone. LOL!
Mohan ordered Pizza from Pizza Hut. Than we ordered later than them.
But ours came first. So they "fight back" & guess what?
WE HAD PIZZAS FOR FREE! Yummy. But i didnt eat well. I didnt like it.
Yup we had girl's session. We were laughing & laughing. The house was
crowded. We're anti-social. We ganged up. Anyways i'm getting lame.
I came back home late. Than wash leg, change & slept after talking on the phone.

Today
School was okay. We celebrated Aisha's & Fazalina's birthday.
It wasnt a successful one. Its sucha unique celebration.
LOL! People who see might understand only. Gave her all the
presents. & than started feeding each other. I love Aisha man.
She's so grateful. Anyways lessons were all the way downstairs.
Didnt go up at all. But EBS was fun. Sat beside zoo. I gave a stupid
reason (: During Science i told Zoo, when i lost my kisses. How i hold
someone's hands and stuff. It was a cool topic. She asked loads of stupid
questions i tell you. I myself don know why was i so into her? ARGH!
Nevermind, its all over now. Shall start loving the present. I wanna study.
But its difficult. I came home early today. Okays. Anyways..................

Hiva Sis's guy can be reminded of Jivinia. ARGH!
Why? Should i tell someone or Keep it to myself?
My head would burst.
^ Please don ask me about it. Will tell when i'm feeling comfortable.
(:

Tivya, Irfanah, Zullaihah, Shaista, Gurpreet,Lachme,Desiree,Rubena,Rajes,Pamela.
Sorry i let out anyone's names. Thanks for cooperating today. Seriously was funn working
with you guys. HUGS EVERYONE! & i love you all.

* LACH POURED HAWT WAX ON MY HAND!

& Nandini just messaged me. LOL!
Okays. Gtg now. I wanna take a nap.
& eat my dinner & SLEEP!
I'm lacking of sleep.
ARGH!
Bye!

~~Baby creature, i love you baby.~~